The Evil "I" Word...

I was induced with Rowan, not because there was a major medical issue, just because I was a few days overdue. I wish I hadn't let the doctor so easily talk me into it, and I really do think that it led to me spending the whole day of labor in bed...which led to the epidural...which led to the HUGE episiotomy....which led to the months of awful pain afterwards. Now I know I still could have had all of that even if I wasn't induced, but that's just how I feel about it.

I wanted it to be different this time, the hospital we are at has midwives, I was hoping to not even have to mess with a doctor. A doctor who would most likely treat my pregnancy as a medical problem instead of something that my body was made for. I feel like I'm treated differently when I have an appointment with a midwife, it's so much more personal. I thought I would finally get the experience I wanted.

Then I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes and suddenly my pregnancy became "high risk." I had to rotate appointments with a doctor, and I did feel treated different at those appointments than with the midwives, but thankfully I was able to stay off insulin so I will still get to have my delivery with a midwife.

Yesterday I had another check-up, which started with an ultrasound for amniotic fluid check (looks good!), a Non-Stress Test (baby looks great, and I had 1 contraction on paper, and I didn't even feel it!), and an appointment with a midwife. I of course said I wanted to be checked and she agreed and asked if the doctor I had been seeing had ever mentioned how far overdue she would let me go- no it wasn't something I had ever wanted to ask her. So she checks me, well tries to check me apparently my wonderful cervix is still too far up or back or whatever! She did say it was VERY soft which is a good sign.

She went to find the doctor to see what her verdict would be. The doctor told her I could have until 40weeks 6days, next Friday the 27th, if I didn't go by then I would be induced with pitocin. Now I did not have pitocin with Rowan all they did was break my water, but I have heard enough about pitocin to know that I do not want it! I would also have to be monitored constantly and wouldn't be able to use the hot tubs or any water on pitocin. So at this point I feel like I want to cry- I am still pregnant and all hormonal and stuff!

We then talk more about the next week and the appointment I will be scheduled for on Monday. I will once again have an ultrasound( this will be #6- I really hope these are as safe as they claim) and Non-Stress test, but this time they will be doing a biophysical profile. I'll have another exam and if there is no change in my cervix we will schedule the induction. I will have to go to the hospital Thursday night and they will insert cervidil and hopefully that will work while I sleep. If that doesn't strt me into labor then Friday morning I will get pitocin. If my cervix has changed by Monday (or even Friday) then they will have other options- sweeping my membranes, or even breaking my water.

I feel a little better about my chances of not having pitocin, and maybe even going into labor on my own- I would like to find out if my body can do this! I am glad to know there is some end in site, and if nothing else by this time next week I will be drinking a pop!!! MMMmmm!!!! Oh and I'll have my newborn baby boy- I guess that's better than the pop! Although I do love McD's Dr. Pepper! :)

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^^^^Notice that my ticker is now going backwards, isn't that nice!^^^^

Does Nesting REALLY Exist?

When I was pregnant with Rowan I was quite lazy (especially at the end), I kept thinking that I would get this huge burst of energy and clean my entire house all at once- this is nesting right? Well I waited and waited and never felt that energy at all. My house got messier and messier because I was waiting to feel the need to nest. I ended up being induced a few days after my due date. The night before we went in for the induction we worked really hard (and late) to get the house in order. I've wondered if I hadn't been induced if I would have ended up feeling the urge to "nest," but who knows.

This pregnancy I am a little less lazy, but I do have an almost 3 year old I have to take care of so I don't really have a choice. The past week I have spent doing A LOT of stuff to get the house ready. EVen though I've done all this I still don't feel like it is "nesting." I don't feel like I have an overwhelming urge or need to clean my house. It's more like I want it clean before he's born so I don't come home to a disgustingly dirty house with a neborn and a toddler to deal with. That I know my mom will be staying here with Rowan when we are in the hospital and if it's not clean she'll do it- ALL WRONG, and then I'll just be pissed off! I remember how stressful it was when Rowan was first born and how little I cared about cleaning during that time, so I know it needs to be done now. And even though I have done a lot of cleaning there are still things I've set out to do everyday this week but then just don't get around to. I keep wanting to mop the kitchen floor but haven't (I have had Mike sweep though), I keep "meaning" to vacuum, and three days this week I have sprayed the tub and put cleaner in the toilet, and then I just rinse it out when it's bathtime (or flush the toilet)! Maybe this is me being half lazy.

I'm just not sure about this whole nesting thing. What do you think, is it real? Any nesting stories, did you really have that energy and urge to clean?

We're in the double digits...

According to the pregnancy ticker, my due date is in 97 days!! This sounds like so much less time than saying 14weeks left, although that doesn't sound like much eaither. I think I am starting to get a little nervous about this whole 2 kids thing- did we really think this through! :) Except for the few outfits and jammies I bought, we haven't got anything yet.

Next week we are taking a trip to Chicago for a few days, Rowan is very excited to ride on the train, he doesn't really know what "Cago" is but knows we are taking a train. It should be a nice trip although it will be kind of cold!!

It's been warmer here all week and we have all enjoyed getting out of the house, and not being sick. The baby is moving a little less than before, but still active.

Mike is on spring break now, and mine is next week- and I can't wait, a whole week w/o work. Maybe i'll go shopping for the baby, or maybe I'll just lay around the house while Rowan's at daycare- yeah i think that sounds nice!

Movies, ice cream, and pregnancy

Rowan's latest obsession has been ice cream cones, Mike bought these mini cones and he loves them! They are tiny but he still feels like he is getting a nice treat! Of course he asks for them all the time, first thing in the morning he says he wants them for breakfast, he wants them for snacks, desserts, and pretty much any time of the day- he doesn't get them that often quite that often though!

My mom and I took Rowan to see his first movie this weekend. Surf's Up was playing at the free matinee. He loves penguins so I thought it would be a good one for him. He did pretty well up till the intermission, he sat on my lap and we all shared a big bucket of popcorn. After taking a bathroom break during intermission I tries to take him back in and he really didn't want to go, he said that the movie was "too loud!" So we left, and I didn't get to see how the movie ended! I thought he did pretty good for sitting for a whole hour- he hardly ever sits for a 20min. cartoon, so I wasn't really surprised that he couldn't sit for a whole movie. he kept asking when we would go back after we got home, maybe we'll try again in a few weeks- after all they are FREE!!

I have been having a lot of hip pain lately, so today I decided to try out my prenatal yoga dvd. I didn't really feel bettre after, but maybe if I actually do it more often it will help. Rowan excercised with me and was really into it for a little while- I will have to get some pics of him doing downward facing dog! We are in our 25th week now! WOW! I think I am huge now, the lasy pics I took were last week, but I am probably not that much bigger this week.

Me at 4 weeks pregnant, and 24 weeks, it's hard to see with the light shirt, but I couldn't find the dark one.

My two boys

Here is our baby boy. Rowan is still calling him brother-sister, but he will now say that he is a boy. I've watched the video of the ultrasound almost every night. It is so neat, he is sleeping with his hand on his chest and then turns his head and starts moving his mouth!!! SO amazing, it doesn't even seem real. He is very active- way more than Rowan was, although since Rowan now never stops moving, hopefully this boy will be a little more calm later on.

We are trying to narrow down some names and so far some of our favorites are: Miles, Oliver, and Eli- not directly related to the Superbowl, although probably how we got the name in our heads. Of course Rowan is going through an "I don't like...!" stage, so everything we say- whether it's a baby name or what's for supper, he loudly lets us know he doesn't like it.

Rowan- who is enjoying some "coffee" aka hot cocoa, in the photo above, has learned how to spell his name. He says R-O-W-H-N, but it's pretty close- A and H do sound a lot a like. He peed in the potty yesterday, and wants to sit on it constantly- but usually doesn't actually go in it, so I'm not sure if this is a good thing or not. I suppose any interest is better than none.

I am defientely not as tired as I was at the beginning of this pregnancy, but now feel like I am starting to move towards the sleeping problems I had when pregnant with Rowan. I am starting to wake up more at night and it seems like it is taking me longer to fall asleep, I also haevne't felt like napping on the weekends- which I kind of miss. I am halfway done with this pregnancy, I just hope the second half goes fast.